Nobody Likes a Dead Cat

I’ve been thinking about this for a while, but made my decision tonight. In order to earn some more money, I’m joining AdSense & Pay Per Post, but that means I have to move my blog to one I can edit more.

Please update your links to Nobody Likes A Dead Cat!

I’m alive and have a real post going up tomorrow.

Check out my other blog to see a picture of me and read what’s been going on in my life this week!

Then prepare yourself for a request tomorrow!!

Mr. E. and I are done with. We’ve decided that we both want different things from a relationship and I’m not willing to wait for a(nother) man to (not) change. I spent 40 hours crying and being depressed and then decided to try and get over it. I had an hour-long adult conversation with him today to give things some closure and it did us both well; we feel much better about things. Since we’re in the same circle of friends, I’m sure that I’ll see him around, but there won’t be anymore romance between us. I learned a lot from this relationship and wouldn’t take it back but it hurt for a while.

I am in Castle Rock this weekend with the Ex’s parents. I love them to death and they treat me so well so I love to visit. Tomorrow I will be hiking Mount St. Helens and taking loads of photographs to share with ya’ll. I am doing it alone (don’t worry, it’s flat and easy and SAFE to do this) and REALLY looking forward to spending some time inside my own head again.

I missed my Thursday 13 due to working 12.5 hours yesterday so I’m going to do it later. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow night. Either way I’ll be sharing something.

I can’t get into my Gmail. Gmail notifier says I have THIRTY TWO emails sitting there waiting for me, but it won’t load. I am grouchy about that. Maybe I’ll try using *gag* IE instead of my beloved Firefox to check it out. We’ll see what happens.

I am watching the Diana concert on VH1 right now and didn’t really mean to start watching it, but now I’m hooked. I don’t even like PDiddy and am actually really happy with his performance right now. I can’t imagine being Prince William or Harry and being there to watch this. I would be bawling.

I saw POTC: At World’s End on Friday night with Mr.E.. I loved it. I almost cried. Then I was introduced to some of Mr.E.’s friends later who were great people and I really enjoyed myself. I should probably write an NC-17 post about the events that occurred later because I have to share them with somebody and that somebody gets to be you!

I saw Willie Nelson last night. It was simply the. most. amazing. concert I’ve ever seen. I was blown away. I am going to write an entire post about it because I was inspired by Willie Nelson. That man is intense and impressive.

*le sigh*

I am doing things quite uncharacteristic of my normal self and I don’t know how I feel about it. I have noticed myself becoming jealous of people, and I’m not normally an envious woman. This makes me wonder. I want to do one thing but find myself doing another. It’s not me. I find myself ignoring phone calls and pretending that they haven’t been bothering me. I have to talk myself into going out and being social and putting on a mask while I’m out. I was a wiz at this mask-game while I was married and miserable. Now I’m single and wearing the mask … pretending that I’m enjoying it all. Well, I don’t think that I am. I am watching the calender and beginning to realize why this is happening, though.

I am four days away from the could-have-been 4-year-anniversary of my marriage. That makes me want to curl up in a ball and shut myself off from the world. Then, to top that all off July 11th will be the one-year anniversary of TheEx suddenly leaving me. I am NOT looking forward to dealing with all of this. I am re-reading entries in my journal that I wrote the week that he let me and I’m crying again. I’m not ready for this to be a year old. I’m not ready.

MissZoot (who is really a MRS) didn’t really tag me, but she posted this and it made me laugh, so I decided to tag myself from Zoot.

FIVE Things I’d Never Change About Me
1. my eye color; growing up I wanted green eyes, but I’ve really grown into (and grown to love) my blue eyes. I would absolutely change their strength (I wear glasses and HAAAATE them) but I do like my dark blue (with little white people dancing in them) eyes.

2. my foot size; I wear an 8 or 8 1/2 and it works for me. Sometimes I have trouble finding shoes that I love and that are still in stock, but I can normally wear my friend’s shoes since I have average-sized feet!

3. my ability to learn; I love to learn, am always learning, and will never stop learning. I pick up languages with no problem, I can handle math when it’s well-explained to me, I can teach others what I’ve learned, and I think my brain is pretty cool.

4. my friendliness; I was telling Mr.E. last night that EVERYONE talks to me. I can be in line at the grocery store, on a bus that’s two hours late, in a rush at the airport, or ordering food inside Wendy’s and people will start talking to me. Little kids love me, small dogs don’t leave me alone, and I have made friends with ALL of my aged neighbors already. EVERYONE talks to me, and I like it.

5. my mental, emotional, physical and spiritual strength; I am a strong woman. I can do anything I set my mind to and I WILL accomplish my goals in life. I have been emotionally hurt, physically sore, and spiritually down before, but I pick myself back up and put myself back together. I’d never give this strength up!

My good buddy Mal tagged me so now I have to share 7 Random Things About Me!

1. If I had the Game Show Network in my cable package, my television would rarely leave the channel. I love game shows … LOVE. GAMESHOWS.

2. I won a spelling bee in the second grade. I am still very aware of how things are spelled and it bothers me to find things that people misspell.

3. I live with multiple mental illnesses. I live with chronic disthymia, generalized anxiety disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and will always be healing from both anorexia and bulimia.

4. I take medication to help me with my illnesses and if people start shit-talking about mental illness, I am the first to speak up and let them know that they’re idiots.

5. I want to be married again. I want to have a child. I want to be a stay-at-home-mom for a while. I want the white picket fence. I lie about that a lot.

6. I swear like a sailor when I’ve been drinking. I also belch like a man, sit with my legs uncrossed, and am generally quite obnoxious. I think I’d make a good guy sometimes.

7. I love to read Mom-blogs. I love to hear about their kids, read their children’s words out loud (today I laughed out loud while I read Notes From The Trenches) and see what hopefully I’ll get to look forward to in my future.

I’m supposed to tag people, but I don’t really know who all reads this, so if you WANT to do it, leave me a comment and I’ll edit the entry to tag you and make sure people see your name on my site!

Green Eggs & Ham

1. Who’s your favorite Ninja Turtle? I don’t remember much about the Ninja Turtles. I loved Splinter the rat, so I guess that would be on my favorite. I also loved April’s yellow jumpsuit and always wanted to dress up as her at Halloween, so yeah. I’m not so much of a turtle fan, but do enjoy the other characters.

2. Do you have a green thumb? I used to think that I would kill anything I tried to grow, but I have two huge plants, and one smaller one, that I haven’t killed in the year that I’ve had them. I don’t think it’s green, but it might have a slightly green tint to it!

3. What’s your favorite kind of salad? I love Ceasar salads. I love Cobb salads. I love green salads. I love spinach salads. I love chicken salad. I love egg salad. (If they’re made with Miracle Whip, not mayo!) I guess I like a lot of salads … mmm for salad.

4. Do you get seasick? I have only been on a few boats in my life and haven’t ever been seasick while on them. However, if I have a migraine and am in the car, I can get carsick pretty easily. Also, if I ride backwards on public transportation I will end up feeling icky and want to barf.

5. Are you a fan of the “Shrek” movies? Have you gone to see the third one? I own the first two Shrek movies, but haven’t seen the third one yet. Puss is probably my favorite character. He and his eyes make me laaaaugh!

10 Occupations You Wanted to be When You Were Young
1. doctor (medical)
2. teacher
3. marine biologist
4. personal shopper
5. mom
6. author/writer
7. photographer
8. chef
9. hairdresser
10. doctor (with a PhD)

I am exhausted after my weekend, so here you go.

1-Put your music player on shuffle.
2-Press forward for each question.
3-Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today? Standing Still - Jewel (uhm, for the first time in a long time I’m actually sitting still!)

Will I get far in life?: Bon Idee - Regina Spektor (okay, I’m good with that … it’ll be a good idea for me to go far!)

How do my friends see me?: Perfect - Alanis Morissette (LMAO, yeah, right!)

Where will I get married?: Wet Sand - Red Hot Chili Peppers (yay for the beach!)

What is my best friend’s theme song?: All I Need - Mat Kearney (I have good taste in friends!)

What is the story of my life?: Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer (yeah, pretty much)

What is/was highschool like?: Hello Mr. Heartache - Dixie Chicks (not really, but I’ll pretend)

Can I get ahead in life?: Life is Wonderful - Jason Mraz (that works for me … life will be wonderful … hopefully!)

What is the best thing about me?: Won’t Back Down - Mat Kearney (oh so true!)

How is today going to be?: Breakdown - Chris Daughtry (well, not yet, but I may bawl later this evening as a release)

What is in store for this weekend?: Overkill - Colin Hay (oh boy, I’ll start drinking water now!)

What song describes my parents?: I’m a Long Way from Home - Shooter Jennings (uh, not really)

My grandparents?: Good Life - Francis Dunnery (sure thing!)

How is my life going?: Superfreak - Rick James (hahahah!)

What song will they play at my funeral?: No Living Without Loving You - Celine Dion (are you all going to die when I die?)

How does the world see me?: Life Support - Jonathan Larson (?? Okay)

Will I have a happy life?: Cry Me a River - Justin Timberlake (uhm, that’s sad)

What do my friends really think of me?: If You Asked Me To - Celine Dion (this was my first loved Celine Dion song!)

Do people secretly lust after me?: New Shoes - Paolo Nutini (people lust after me like the lust after new shoes?)

How can I make myself happy?: Miss Independent - Kelly Clarkson (okay, can do)

What should I do with my life?: Fumbling towards Ecstacy - Sarah McLachlan (drugs? just love life? whaaa?)

Will I ever have children?: Bleed - Anna Nalick (hahahahahaahah!)

What is some good advice for me?: Hungry Eyes - Dirty Dancing soundtrack (and that means?)

What is my signature dancing song? Hallelujah - Rufus Wainwright (never danced to this song!)

What is my current theme song?: Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield (I can go for that!)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?: We’re All Mad - Natasha Bedingfield (well, aren’t we?)

What type of men/women do you like?: White & Nerdy - Weird Al Yankovic - (hahahahaha incredibly true!)