Nobody Likes a Dead Cat

Mr. E. and I are done with. We’ve decided that we both want different things from a relationship and I’m not willing to wait for a(nother) man to (not) change. I spent 40 hours crying and being depressed and then decided to try and get over it. I had an hour-long adult conversation with him today to give things some closure and it did us both well; we feel much better about things. Since we’re in the same circle of friends, I’m sure that I’ll see him around, but there won’t be anymore romance between us. I learned a lot from this relationship and wouldn’t take it back but it hurt for a while.

I am in Castle Rock this weekend with the Ex’s parents. I love them to death and they treat me so well so I love to visit. Tomorrow I will be hiking Mount St. Helens and taking loads of photographs to share with ya’ll. I am doing it alone (don’t worry, it’s flat and easy and SAFE to do this) and REALLY looking forward to spending some time inside my own head again.

I missed my Thursday 13 due to working 12.5 hours yesterday so I’m going to do it later. Maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow night. Either way I’ll be sharing something.

I’m stealing internet from a neighbor. I have survived two nights alone in my new house and already love it. I live in the land of cardboard boxes right now, but seem to be making progress. Tomorrow my own internet comes (and hopefully it’ll come with a hot internet hooker upper guy, too) and I’ll have a telephone and cable TV then, too. For now I live with fuzzy TV and stolen internet.

I went on a date tonight. The guy, Mr.R was very kind, quite a gentleman, bought me my dinner (butternut squash ravioli in a warm balsamic raspberry sauce) and my beer and he was funny. He is a former Marine corpsman and I think, that if he calls me, I will go out with him again. Maybe this dating thing won’t turn out to be so bad.

Work is still going well … I programmed phones and impressed one of my bosses today … so that was good. It may be two weeks, though, before I start in on my “regular” (7am-3:30pm) hours. That’s okay for now. I will survive.

My entire body hurts from moving and then from a Pirate Pub Crawl (there are pictures, but the camera is with MissBuckeye still) on Saturday night. Gay men can sure dance … I heart gay men. : )

What else? Not much else is going on … just kinda settling in to a new routine in my new house with my new life. It is proving to be new and exciting! *mwah*

Well, Mr.E. wins the date of the week award. : ) He is never boring to me and we had a great time last night. I showed up at his house and he answered the door in his underwear (and he looks good in his underwear, so that was a nice welcome). After he got dressed we went down to NW 23rd and had pizza and a beer at a little place off the main drag. We had good conversation (about growing up) and then we walked about 10 blocks West and then 10 blogs East to spend some time outside (it was overcast, but still nice to walk in) and we talked the entire way. We debated getting another pizza before nixing that idea and talking about childhood television shows we watched (and the strange names that we called them rather than their real names) all the way home.

Mr.E. actually had to stop at the grocery store for lunch foods and so he dragged me grocery shopping with him … where he proceeded to buy mayonnaise, lunch meat and eggs … but it took us 15 minutes to do this. I hate grocery shopping and I hate mayo so it was a hysterical discussion about how gross mayo (and pickles) are to me. After the grocery store we went back to his house and spent the next two hours laughing through Hellboy and then through the Gerald McBoing-Boing cartoons. I’d buy the movie just to have those cartoons!

Things in the physicality department are, once again, hot between us. I was pleasantly surprised when I got butterflies again when there was physical contact. That sounds silly, and it’s weird for me to be writing about it, but we’re all friends here … and it happens. LOL I stayed the night with him (but things were only rated PG-13) and we talked until we were both too tired to talk. We fell asleep holding hands … which I am a complete sucker for. *le sigh* TWIT.erpated.

He was equally affectionate when we got up this morning (SIX THIRTY!) and we had more conversation about mayo while he was making his lunch. It was amusing and made me feel good … and I thought I was going to have a great day … it started out that way!

I came home, put on my running clothes (!!!!!) and went out for a short-ish run. I only made it about 4 miles before my new shoes started rubbing my foot funny and I knew I’d develop a blister, so I came back home. MissPea was (strangely) still sleeping and so I did some stretching and then surfed the internet a bit. I learned, on accident, who the X is dating and things went downhill quickly from there. I ended up getting in bed, bawling for a while and then falling asleep. I was supposed to go see Mama and BabyDee this early afternoon, but I was so upset even when I woke up (again) that I called her, whined to her about my situation (another reason I love my best friend … she has a week-old baby and she’ll still listen to me whine about my emotional problems!) and then we rescheduled for tomorrow.

Tonight MissBuckeye is coming over to watch Grey’s Anatomy with me since MissPea is picking up her brother (he is done with school and heading home to Alaska on Saturday) and I don’t like to watch it alone. I figure I’ll bawl (again) and can see Buckeye before we plan for our weekend.

So, I’ve recruited some new visitors thanks to them searching for the Orbit gum commercial that I wrote about a few entries back! Well guess what guys, I found the video online!!!! Now when people look for the raspberry mint (which is tasty, btw) commercial, they may get pointed here! To the two of you who found me by that original search, this vid’s for you!

For the rest of you, I tell you (AGAIN!) to go watch Will Ferrell meets his landlord! The “outtakes” of Pearl have even been released and are as equally as funny if you’re interested.

My date last night was. Yes, it just was. The guy is smart, he is kind, he bought dinner (and my margarita) but all he talked about was his job! I got bored pretty quickly and drank my margarita a little quicker than normal because I thought that would make him more entertaining. Sadly, it didnt. : ( No, really. We rented Little Miss Sunshine since he hadn’t seen it, and while we had some great laughs (I laughed so hard I cried, again), he was pretty boring. If he calls again I may give him another chance, but really, it wasn’t that fun. I’m seeing Mr.E. tonight … we’re going to have dinner and spend some time outside since it’s been so nice in Portland lately. (Did ya’ll know I live in Portland? ;)) I’m looking forward to seeing him … last time we were together there was quite a steamy kiss involved … I got BUTTERFLIES people … after I write about getting over him and being done things get spicy. I dunno! Dating is lame!

Tomorrow night MissBuckeye and I are having dinner and then we’re coming back to MY house (we always go to her house!) to watch the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy. I’m excited to hang out with her. Her parents have been in town for about a week now so she’s been entertaining them. MissBee is in Ohio visiting her family and so Buckeye and I are on our own to entertain ourselves. I’m sure we can handle it. (This weekend we’re going to an art walk where I will stealthily meet Mr.E.’s mom who is IN the art walk. bwahahahah)

I need to start working out again. I haven’t been doing what I need to in order to lose some weight. Mal, I’d love to work out with you. Which Y do you work out at? Free is always great … so a free pass to check it out could be fun! I don’t think that’d be stalker-ish at all and it could turn into great motivation for the both of us! Let me know; you know where to find me! (not so) Mad, I don’t need to lose a lot of weight, but I do have some pants that aren’t fitting comfortably. I stopped running and gained about 10 or 15 pounds and so that’s all I’d ultimately like to lose. Thank you for the compliment. : )

MissPea made coffee this morning and I think, after drinking a cup of it, I now have hair on my chest. I don’t think that’ll be attractive for my date this evening, must remember to plug in my electric razor. ; )

Oh, and I figured out how I’m going to respond to comments … I’m going to address them IN the comments section in groups as they show up. I’ll talk back to you there, so if you ask me a question, I’ll write to you in a comment … but I don’t think that YOU can see the comments as I reply so if you really want to see my response, you’ll have to check the comments section.

loves to you all

roses in my parents yard … already in bloom … quite strange to me

I may have mentioned before that I have been trying to lose some weight. I don’t know if I did now, actually. I think I need to weigh myself so I have a starting point. *le sigh* I’m afraid of the numbers that will come up and I’ll have to write it down. Tomorrow morning, I will weigh myself before I eat and before I get into the shower … and of course after I pee. Then I will keep track of things. I guess this also means that I actually have to keep track of my movement, too. I love to run. I don’t know why I haven’t been out running. No, I take that back, I know why I haven’t been running … I’ve been depressed. Blah! Getting fired (even by ass-hats) didn’t help my mood at all.

I have an official date tonight. I’m not nervous, I’ve known the guy for a few years, we just haven’t hung out much in the past year or so. We’ll see how it turns out.

I applied to a few jobs yesterday and got three return phone calls today. I applied at Starbucks last night and so hopefully the manager will call me about that. It’s only part-time, but even that will help me out. My mom, who I adore, offered me some money to help with rent at the end of the month, too; so that’s something a little less to worry about. I’m off to apply for some more jobs now though … whee, this is fun. /sarcasm

Normally on Wednesday I see my psychiatrist, Scuba Steve but he had boards today, so instead of staying until “normal” time at work, I left early still and just came home. I put on my running clothes and took off. I made it about 2 miles before I really started hurting and turned around. In the long run I only ran about 2 miles and then walked another 1 mile on the way home. I still worked out and feel good about that. I talked a bit to MrE, then jumped in the shower. I then made myself the best dinner I’ve had in a couple of weeks. I had some free-range cajun turkey (I heart New Seasons), some smoked gouda cheese, stone ground mustard, and spinach all stuffed inside a whole grain pita from Trader Joe’s. I ate about a 1/2 cup of raspberries right after my run and so I’ve had all the food groups now! Go me! LOL I’m easily excited by stuff like that.

I’m working towards taking better care of myself since my divorce and this is a huge step for me. Organic food, all the food groups, running in the sunshine, getting out and having a life. I’m changing quite a bit and really enjoying what I’m learning about myself. I think I keep mentioning that … oh well, this is my place.

Oh, and look! I started my blogroll for ya’ll to check out where I spend my online time.

10 Random Facts about MizGee

1. I love The Last Kiss soundtrack. I listen to it at least once a day all the way through. My favorite song on it is Paperweight by Schuyler Fisk & Joshua Radin. Zach Braff has amazing taste in music and I am constantly impressed by his musical choices.

2. I participate in National Novel Writing Month every year. I have three novel(las) written. None of them have seen the light of day since I wrote them, but they are out there for me. It’s March now … I have more than six months to get novel #4 mentally planned.

3. I speak three languages; English, German and Russian. I have a degree in German, and to earn that degree I had to take two years of another language … I can’t go for the easy ones so I chose Russian. I pick up foreign languages really easily and am looking forward to getting back into school (September) to pick up another language while I’m there.

4. I am obsessed with LOST. No, really. I have seen every single episode at least once, and many of them two or three times. I am normally very easily distracted, unless LOST is on my TV. My first real celebrity crush was Matthew Fox, and now it’s Josh Holloway, on top of a great show, the LOST boys make a great show for me!

5. I am 24 and divorced. Yes, four & twenty years old. I married my high school sweetheart after dating him for 6 years. It wasn’t right for us and we had an amicable divorce. He was my best friend but we’re growing apart as we’re growing up without one another now. I am proud of who I am becoming. I am getting back on the dating scene and will probably mention MrE every once in a while. He’s the guy that I’ve been seeing quite a bit of lately. I like him.

6. Back to music … I have a very wide variety of music that I frequently listen to. I just set up my iTunes to do the “Party Shuffle” with the “Top 25 Most Played” songs to show you what I mean. Get ready for a giggle.
- Today: Joshua Radin
- Rose of My Heart: Johnny Cash (my favorite JC song)
- Bad Day: Daniel Powter
- Black Horse & the Cherry Tree: KT Tunstall
- Paperweight: Shuyler Fisk & Joshua Radin
- Come Sail Away: Styx
- It Ain’t Me Babe: Joaquin Phoenix & Reese Witherspoon (from the Walk the Line soundtrack)
- The Beauty in Ugly (Ugly Betty Version): Jason Mraz
- I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles): The Proclaimers
I will listen to anything once and there are very few musicians that I don’t like (The Gorillaz … the first one that popped into my head) and there are very few types of music I don’t like (screaming metal garbage). I grew up listening to classic rock and Fleetwood Mac is my favorite band of all time. My favorite song of all time is Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen.

7. I ran when I was younger, then ran in junior high, then in high school, but once I got to college I stopped. I don’t really know why, but I did. I have recently gotten back into it and am realizing how badly I’ve missed running. As a Pacific North Westerner I have always run in the rain and so it doesn’t scare me to even start during one of the rainiest months we’ve had this year! I am hoping to get into shape enough to run my first 5- or 10k this summer sometime. I’ll probably use journaling as a way to keep track of how (and what) I’m doing.

8. I love college football and basketball; especially my Pac-10 teams. I went to a Pac-10 school for my undergrad studies and they taught me that college football is FUN! This year was the second year that I played with the NCAA brackets for basketball finals, and while I’m not very good (because I’ve just recently gotten into basketball) I had fun picking & choosing. I’m all for Ohio State winning the National Championship this coming Sunday! O! H!

9. My toenails are always painted. ALWAYS. I think they look ugly without polish on them so I always have color on them. Normally it’s a bright pink or a dark plum color. They are never naked. Along this same line, I hate socks, so I wear flip flops almost year round. If my feet wouldn’t hurt, I would run in flip flops! Even in the rain I will wear my flips!

10. If I had to live the rest of my life on one type of food, it would be soup. I could easily feed myself for life with the variety of soups that are available to us. I love soup. I work with a woman who doesn’t like soup and I am utterly confused by that fact. I eat soup almost every day for lunch, and she has a salad (which I’m not a huge fan of) almost every day. We are quite the pair. My favorite soup is my Grandpa K’s bean soup. He gave me the recipe for it but mine still won’t turn out as good as his does! Maybe one day!