Nobody Likes a Dead Cat

————– 10 Years Ago ————–
1.) How old were you? almost 15 … gosh
2.) Where did you go to school? Fremont Middle School
3) Where did you work? I didn’t quite yet
4.) Where did you live? Roseburg, OR
5.) Where did you han out? At the library or at The Admiral’s house
6.) Did you wear glasses? nope
7.) Who was your best friend/s? The Admiral, Mr.H, Mr.R
8.) Who were your enemies? Uhm, I don’t know that I actually had any.
9.) How many tattoos did you have? None
10.) How many piercings did you have? Just one in each ear
11.) What car did you drive? I couldn’t drive yet!
12.) Relationship status? Dating a douche!

————– 7 Years Ago ————–
1.) How old were you? almost 18
2.) Where did you go to school? Roseburg Senior High School
3) Where did you work? At a law firm
4.) Where did you live? Roseburg, OR
5.) Where did you hang out? work, the ex’s house
6.) Did you wear glasses? no
7.) Who was your best friend/s? MissEee, MissJay, MissTee, the ex
8.) What was your favorite show? senior year of high school I didn’t have time to watch TV
9.) How many tattoos did you have? none yet
10.) How many piercings did you have? just the one in each ear until my 18th birthday
11.) What car did you drive? a toyota corolla
12.) Relationship status? taken, and engaged … ack

————– 4 Years Ago ————–
1.) How old were you? almost 21
2.) Where did you go to school? Oregon State University
3) Where did you work? OSU
4.) Where did you live? Corvallis, OR
5.) Where did you hang out? at work, at school, at home
6.) Did you wear glasses? yup
7.) Who was your best friend/s? the ex, MissEee, MissJay
8.) What was your favorite show? Alias
9.) How many tattoos did you have? just one
10.) How many piercings did you have? two in each ear, one in my belly button
11.) What car did you drive? the same Toyota Corolla
12.) Relationship status? almost married … two months away from it

————– 2 Years Ago ————–
1.) How old were you? almost 23
2.) Where did you go to school? I didn’t … I had already graduated
3) Where did you work? OHSU
4.) Where did you live? Portland, OR
5.) Where did you hang out? work, a few bars, MrL’s house
6.) Did you wear glasses? Yeah
7.) Who was your best friend/s? The ex, MissNPee, MissEve
8.) Who was your crush? the ex
9.) How many tattoos did you have? just one
10.) How many piercings did you have? two in each ear, one in my belly button and one in my nose
11) What car did you drive? a Ford Escort
12.) Relationship status? married

————– Today ————–
1.) How old are you? almost 25
2.) Where do you work? I’m a nanny
3.) Where do you live? Portland, OR
4.) Do you wear glasses? Yeah, all the time.
5.) Where do you hang out? home, bars, MissBee’s house
6.) Who are your best friends? MissDee, MissPea, MissBee
7.) Who are your enemies? the ex
8.) Do you talk to your old friends? Yeah, quite a few
9.) What’s your favorite show? LOST
10.) How many piercings do you have? two in each ear
11.) How many tattoos? just one
12.) What kind of car do you have? Ford Escort
13.) Relationship status? single and mingling

I took this picture of Mt. Hood on Monday

Do you have blogs you read that you don’t feel “cool enough” to comment on? I do and I can’t figure out WWWWWHHHHHYYYYY I feel that way … I’m sure they’d never notice if I randomly started commenting or if I never commented at all.

… I’ll clean my room today.
… tomorrow I’ll sleep so my neck doesn’t hurt in the morning.
… I won’t drink TWO cups of coffee tomorrow.
… someone will hug me today.
… I will learn to play the kazoo this year.
… Grey’s Anatomy will make me bawl tonight. (This is more of a for-sure, instead of a maybe, though.)
… Courtney Jones will stop making me want to simutaneously cry and cheer myself on with her music.
… the Duck practice football game this weekend will be worth it.
… Mad will move to Oregon to profess his undying love for me.
… I should never drink TWO cups of coffee again.

I don’t know who all reads this blog right now … but I’ve had a lot on my heart lately and don’t know exactly where to turn with it or what to do, and I’m actually nervous about talking about it.

While in high school I was very active in a liberally minded Christian church. I felt at home there, had a wonderful circle of friends (quite a few of whom I’m still friends with) and learned a lot about myself there. While in college I had a horrible experience at the church where my youth pastor had “sent” me and then later learned that this youth pastor was fired for his advances towards other young women in my church. Needless to say, my relationship with religion changed drastically.

Lately, however, I’ve been feeling weird tugs to start looking for another church. I am pretty anti-church now, though. I’m a very liberal, educated, and opinionated woman. I can’t just waltz into any church and be comfortable. I don’t know what to do though … none of my close friends now (even those who I’m close to from my previous church) go to church in my town, and I don’t know who to approach to see what might work for me. I don’t even know that I actually want to go back to church … I am really confused.

Do any of you have any suggestions, recommendations, or ideas on what I could do or look or whatever?

I saw a Courtney Jones on Friday night at Borders and really enjoyed myself. She is a beautiful musician and I have been listening to both of her CDs essentially non-stop since Friday evening. I went alone and read photography magazines while I listened. I think, if you’re into Sarah McLachlan (or Norah Jones, Dido, Tori Amos, Fiona Apple, Carole King, Joni Mitchell, Peter Gabriel, or evevn U2), you’d like her music as well. Very introspective lyrics and calming music … I even got to meet her during the intermission of the show and she signed both of my CDs! If you want to check her out, she (like everybody and their grandmother’s dog) has a MySpace, too. (So do I if you are interested in being MySpace friends. : )

After the music I met Mr.E for Blades of Glory and we laughed. A. Lot. I am way into Will Ferrell and his stupid humor … and it was worth the hour & a half of sitting. Then he came back to the house and he, MissPee and I watched Borat (my gosh that’s an obnoxious movie) and stayed up until 5AM (AM!!!) talking. It was quite fun.

The rest of the day was be low-key and energy-saving since I had planned on spending today with my nanny-family. MomC, DadE, MrT (3) andMrArrr (1). We went to play at OMSI. MomC and I had a long conversation today about “why I seem flaky” (her words, not mine) and I understand a bit more what’s going on with their family. I asked her to just be open about her needs from me and I’d do the same with them; she was very receptive to my requests and I’m thankful for that.

The RTG (one of the places I interviewed on Tuesday) called me Friday to schedule my broker-interview for Tuesday. They also received my thank-you note that I mailed them the day after my interview. MissK (the younger interviewer) was very flattered that I took notice of how to spell her name and whatnot and Jodi (the older interviewer who is another big-wig in the company) even got on the phone to thank me for “keeping an thorough and kind tradition” going. She said that I was the only person who sent a thank-you-for-the-interview note. I was boggled! I thought it was standard, but twice now in life it’s set me apart from other candidates so I will continue to do so! They want me part-time and the family wants me for about 30 hours … so I will be working a job & a half this summer.

School starts for me at Portland State University September 24th and I’m already looking forward to that new/fresh start. I don’t even know exactly what classes I’ll be taking, but I’ll be back in school. I am excited beyond belief that I get to stay in the Pacific Northwest with my friends (and family, even though we’re not incredibly close).

I’m about to open this blog up to people I know in real life … well, just two of them … which will be interesting. MissBean and MissWeen and I have been close friends since I was a sophomore in high school. We lived together in college and then we all moved away from one another. MissBean lives in Corvallis (go Beavers!) and MissWeen lives in Roseburg where we were all raised and first met. We are having a girl-get-together in two weeks and I’m already excited to see them! They are some of the best friends that I could ask for.

Oh, and I wanted to do a small shout-out to my new readers! Hi!! I will add your blogs to my links list that I have and check out your blogs today!!

I got accepted to my #1 school choice!!!

I will be a PSU Viking in September!!!

I don’t have to leave my favorite city and I get to stay around my friends!

Yay!!!

1. What is your natural hair color? it’s a plain ‘ol boring brown … nothing exciting, but it is all mine!
2. Where was your default pic taken? Uhm, I don’t have a “default” picture on here becuase I’m trying to remain mostly anonymous. I take a lot of pictures though, so any default picture could have been taken essentially anywhere!
3. What’s your middle name? It starts with a letter that’s in my handle here. *nods*
4. Your current relationship status? I am single … and MrE and I haven’t even been spending that much time together lately. I’ve been pretty sick so that’s probably part of it, but I’m enjoying the space that I’m taking away from the boy.
5. Honestly, does your crush like you back? Well, lately I haven’t been feeling so crush-ed on him, and I don’t think he’s feeling so much that way towards me lately either.
6. What is your current mood? Calm, cool, collected, motivated to find a job.
7. What color underwear are you wearing? Wouldn’t you like to know!?
8. What makes you happy? Lots of things make me happy; new pens, blank journals, LOST, Grey’s Anatomy, hanging out with my roommate, spending time with my friend MissDee, getting text messages from friends, taking photographs.
9. Where did number nine go? I don’t know, maybe it ran away to use the little girl’s room?
10. If you could go back in time, and change something what would u change? I wouldn’t change anything - I might react differently to how some things in life have happened, but I wouldn’t change anything.
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be? I’d be a giraffe; they’re pretty cool.
12. Ever had a near death experience? Yeah, my roommate tried to kill me on Friday!
13. Something you do a lot? Lately I’ve been coughing alot, texting alot, going to a lot of job interviews, cleaning up messes in my room a lot, sending out resumes. It’s been weird!
14. What’s the name of the song stuck in your head right now? No songs stuck in my head now.
15. Where did #15 go? It ran away with whatever other number disappeared.
16. Name someone with the same b-day as you? JFK! : )
17. When was the last time you cried? Last Friday when I hurt so badly and then MissPee tried to kill me.
18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? Yeah, during Girl Scout talent shows in grade school!
19. If you could have one super power what would it be? I’d love to be invisible so that I could spy on everyone!
20. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? How tall they are, what they’re wearing, are their teeth straight and what does their hands look like?
21. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Something with vanilla or caramel in it. Mmm mmm coffee!
22. What’s your biggest secret? I can keep secrets.
23. What’s your favorite color(s)? Blues and then greens.
24. When was the last time you lied? I lied during my job interview by saying that I loved my previous job.
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows? Nope, I’m all about adult entertainment … no, wait, that’s not right! LOL
26. Where did this number go? I don’t care, who keeps deleting questions they don’t want to answer?
27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment? I have a Hansen’s soda near me but I haven’t taken anything out for dinner just yet.
28. Do you speak any other language? Yup, I have a degree that says I can speak German.
29. What’s your favorite smell? Vanilla, blackberries, most boys smell pretty good.
30. If you could describe your life in one word what would it be? Complicated!
31. When was the last time you gave/received a hug? On Sunday morning from the boy.
32. Have you ever wanted to be kissed in the rain? Yes, I would loveto be kissed in the rain!
33. What are you thinking about right now? My neck hurts. I think my ketoprophen wore off!
34. What should you be doing? Cleaning up the piles in my room. I will clean off my desk before going to bed tonight … I think.
35. What was the last thing that made you upset/angry? Not having a job … it’s frustrating and I’m bored already!
36. How often do you pray? Hardly ever.
37. Do you like working in the yard? Only sometimes … when I want to work rather than when I have to work!
38. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? Bellum. It would be funny with my first name.
39. Do you act differently around your crush? Nope, I’m equally weird around everyone.
40. Name one song that reminds you of an ex? Not Ready to Make Nice by the Dixie Chicks

I am really sick. Like mucus and nastiness sick. I am unemployed. I have job interviews scheduled, but nothing today. I’m taking care of myself with hot tea and rest and crappy television and random quizzes. Whee!

1. What are your initials? MG ; ) Well, that’s at least one of my real initials.
2. What is your favorite thing to wear? yoga pants and a comfy sweatshirt
3. Last thing you ate? turkey loaf from New Seasons and hot tea
4. I say Shotgun, you say? “Go ahead! My legs are short I fit in the back!”
5. Who was the last person you hugged? Probably MrE on Sunday morning … yeah.
6. How many U.S states have you been to? Alaska, Washington, Idaho, Oregon, California, Nevada, Arizona, Florida … eight of them
7. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? Alaska, Washington, Oregon and Floriday … four of them
8. Does anyone you know wanna date you? maybe? you’d have to ask around…hahaha
9. Name something you like physically about yourself: I have straight teeth.
10. Who is your best friend? MissDee, MissPee, MissKay
11. Why are you still up? Because it’s not even 3pm yet!
12. Who/What made you angry today? My cold has made me angry … I can’t get enough mucus out of my chest and it’s annoying the hell out of me!
13. Don’t know what happened to this question!
14. Favorite holidays: Memorial Day! We get a whole weekend to celebrate and it’s my birthday!
15. Do you download music: Yeah, sometimes, not so much anymore though.
16. Do you care if your socks are dirty? Yes, I like my clean socks.
17. Would you date the person who posted this? I in love with anyone!
20. Do you like G.W. Bush? Nope; not at all.
21. Have you ever bungee jumped? No, and I wouldn’t.
22. Have you ever gone white-water rafting? Not “officially,” but I’ve been rafting in white water.
23. Has anyone many years older than you ever hit on you? Yes, and I turn them down every single time.
24. How much money ya got in ya pocket? Nothing in my pocket today.
25. Have you met a real redneck? Yes, I grew up in Southern Oregon; my family is redneck!
26. How is the weather right now? Kinda rainy … chilly … but it’s been worse around here lately.
27. What are you listening to right now? Survivor onDemand
28. What is your current favorite song? Paperweight (Schuyler Fisk and Joshua Radin) or All I Need (Mat Kearney)
29.what is the last movie you watched? RENT last night … I fell asleep right as Angel dies.
30. Do you wear contacts? I would if I had any here … instead I’m wearing my glasses.
31. Where was the last place you went besides your house? Uhm, to the grocery store with my roommate.
32. What are you afraid of? Dime-sized spiders, disappointing someone I love, needles
33. How many piercings have you had? Two in each of my ears
34. How many pets do you have? None
35. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year? I am a very strong woman.
36. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Venti nonfat quad vanilla (or caramel) latte
37. Have you ever fired a gun? Nope
38. Are you missing someone? yeah
39. Favorite TV show? LOST
40. Do you have an iPod? Yeah
41. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb? Nope
42. Who would you like to see right now? Uhm, my mom.
43. Favorite movie of all time? Garden State
44. Do you find yourself loved? Yeah
45. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do? Yeah, as a little kid I’m sure I was.
46. Favorite flowers? Tulips
47. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? Lots of butter, please
48. What Magazines are you reading? I get Fitness and some trashy celebrity gossip magazine that I read
49. Has anyone you were really close to passed away recently? No
50. What’s something that really bugs you? Pen clickers, foot jigglers, colds.
51. Do you like Michael Jackson? Nope.
52. What’s your favorite smell? Baking foods, MrE, blackberries
53. Favorite baseball team? The OSU Beavers
54. Favorite cereal? Lucky Charms
55. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep? A little over two days.
56. Last time you went bowling? About a year ago I think.
57. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? in the backseat of my grandparents truck when I was camping and it started pouring down rain
58. Who was your last phone call? Call to Sara
59. Last time you were at work? Friday
60. What’s the closest orange object to you? Fake paper whites next to me … orange paperwhite. LOL

whats your name spelt backwards?: Eeg Ssim
What did you do last night?: watched LOST and went to bed
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: a Microsoft update thingy
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: No, but I’ve licked other batteries and never felt the “shock” that people talk about
Last time you swam in a pool?: at least two summers ago
What are you wearing?: white socks, jeans, purple undies & a purple bra, green t-shirt & a grey OSU sweatshirt
How many cars have you owned?: 2 in 8 years
Type of music you dislike most?: electronic techno-esque stuff
Are you registered to vote?: you bet your ass I am!
Do you have cable?: yeah, just the family package stuff
What kind of computer do you use?: a Dell laptop named Petunia
Ever made a prank phone call?: yeah, of course!
You like anyone right now?: absolutely do
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: I’d go sky diving, but I like my back and neck aligned so I’ll skip the bungee jumping
Furthest place you ever traveled?: southern Germany
What’s your favorite comic strip?: Close to Home
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: Yup
Shower, morning or night?: Morning unless I’ve been running, then twice a day!
Best movie you’ve seen in the past month?: An Inconvenient Truth
Favorite pizza toppings?: light sauce, extra cheese, pepperoni and black olives
Chips or popcorn?: chips, BBQ or sour cream & onion
What cell phone provider do you have?: Verizon
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: uhm, no, that’s weird
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: you’re joking, right? LMAO
Orange Juice or apple?: either pulp-free OJ or really really cold apple juice
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: coworkers probably
favorite chocolate bar?: Milka - German stuff
Who is your longest friend and how long?: MissBeeS (lol, that doesn’t come out quite right) … we’ve been friends since the 4th grade
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: probably last summer
Have you ever won a trophy?: yeah, I’m a nerd like that
Favorite arcade game?: I don’t really have one
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: nope
Sprite or 7-UP?: Sprite
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: not at school, but at a job as a summer counselor one year, yeah
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: I don’t know … I rarely ever shop there
Ever thrown up in public?: yes, three times
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: millionaire … multi-millionaire … then I could find a guy no problem!
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: SpongeBob NOPants! LOL
Did you have long hair as a young kid?: Never REALLY long, but quite often it was past my shoulders
What message is on your voicemail machine?: uhm, it’s the Audix machine with my name stuck in the middle
Where would you like to go right now?: Greece
Whats the name of your pet?: invisible Kitty
What kind of back pack do you have, and what’s in it?: It’s a black huge-ass Jansport thing
What do you think about most?: lately it’s only been finding a job and money

I think Mal knew I was getting really sick and so she put up a post all about how to make me feel better. Mal, when I got home today I had a huge bowl of garlic noodle soup, a huge cup of throat coat tea, and then proceeded to cough up enough mucus to coat a killer whale. Thank you. I feel like poo today! I only worked for five (instead of my normal eight) hours today and then am home to drink hot tea, hot soup, and hack. It’s gross … but at least I’m not at work doing it, right?

Before noon today, I had EIGHT voicemails from people wanting to set up interviews for new admin jobs. I’m all for that. At 4pm I’ll call them back and see what I can schedule for Monday. I’m not really looking forward to it all, but I’ll survive. I’m going to miss the environment that I currently work in, but not the job itself, or most of the people I work with. This will be good for me. I just have to actually call them. I will do this today. I will schedule my interviews.